are you connected?

I watched Noriko's Dinner Table last night, and didn't realize it was related to Suicide Club. Are you connected to yourself? What role do you play?

It got me thinking in my sick state about connection to self. Who do I want to be? What do I want to be? What do I want my home to be? Is what I want reflective of my true nature, or of what I think others think of me? Now is maybe not the time to pursue it. But I'm making an ispiration book file wahtever for sure.

This post brought to you by the drug hydrocodone.

motivation and drugs

I was driving back home today, motivated to do things with the house on my afternoon off. I was all, Yeah! This is the year of getting things done! And then I realized that most of the credit for that goes to the antidepressants. That statemente doesn't really bother me. What bothers me is how many years I wasted by not admitting that I should see a doctor about it.

ANYWAY. I painted the kitchen door. It didn't take as long as I thought it would, but it does need another coat.

I also seriously need to take a shower.

My resolution for this week is no soda. For one week. I can do that, right?

I need a nap. *yawn*

A new stab at the new start

Okay, so the first week back to work pretty much blew. I managed to keep up with about a quarter of the house stuff. Of course, the problem was compounded by starting the psych class and the dreaded dr. appointment smack in the middle of the week. But today is Saturday. It's supposed to snow (though I seriously doubt that) and we're staying in today. I've slept in, lazed around, surfed the net, got inspired by pictures, and am now ready to move to the next step.

LIST MAKING.

I do make a lot of lists, but I'm getting better at using them and making them work. A lot of credit goes to Mark Forster and his various approaches. Do it tomorrow works great for me at work, and although I haven't really investigated or tried his new one, I think it might work well as a home system.

So. Let the listmaking begin!

New year, new plans

Well, I did it. I had the house in order to my satisfaction before the start of the new year. Yes, there's a few areas that didn't get done. The upstairs bathroom is still a problem area, as is the dormer in the dressing room. I still say that if the dressing room had more light it would be a far better place. Why are there no ceiling lights in there?!

I'm sort of in a stuck place now. I have the momentum to keep going, but there's not much else that's easy to do and declutter. So it's on to the next thing. Decorating. I balk a that because I'm bad at it, and because I never finish it. It's just so overwhelming and time consuming. I was thinking of devoting a month to each room--that would give me a timeframe to finish things by. Also, when I got tired of working I could start planning for the next month but not allow myself to work on it. IDK. I have to think on it a little more. Write by hand. Stuff like that.

I just wrote and deleted "Not looking forward to going back to work tomorrow." I had been looking forward to it, but at the moment I'm not. I'm getting pretty useless here though, so a change will be good, right? I'm just going to be so dead tomorrow now that I have a two week habit of getting up at 10. It was orignially 8, but quickly jumped to 9, and over the past three days has extended to 10. But tomorrow will be 6:30.

I half want to actually get up at 6:20 or 6:30 so I can have my little time in my nook, sipping coffee or hot lemon water and checking my blogs. But the other half wants to sleep.

Ah! I also started the idea of starting a new habit each month. I have to think what those will be too. This month's is to wash my face before bed.