motivation and drugs

I was driving back home today, motivated to do things with the house on my afternoon off. I was all, Yeah! This is the year of getting things done! And then I realized that most of the credit for that goes to the antidepressants. That statemente doesn't really bother me. What bothers me is how many years I wasted by not admitting that I should see a doctor about it.

ANYWAY. I painted the kitchen door. It didn't take as long as I thought it would, but it does need another coat.

I also seriously need to take a shower.

My resolution for this week is no soda. For one week. I can do that, right?

I need a nap. *yawn*

A new stab at the new start

Okay, so the first week back to work pretty much blew. I managed to keep up with about a quarter of the house stuff. Of course, the problem was compounded by starting the psych class and the dreaded dr. appointment smack in the middle of the week. But today is Saturday. It's supposed to snow (though I seriously doubt that) and we're staying in today. I've slept in, lazed around, surfed the net, got inspired by pictures, and am now ready to move to the next step.

LIST MAKING.

I do make a lot of lists, but I'm getting better at using them and making them work. A lot of credit goes to Mark Forster and his various approaches. Do it tomorrow works great for me at work, and although I haven't really investigated or tried his new one, I think it might work well as a home system.

So. Let the listmaking begin!

New year, new plans

Well, I did it. I had the house in order to my satisfaction before the start of the new year. Yes, there's a few areas that didn't get done. The upstairs bathroom is still a problem area, as is the dormer in the dressing room. I still say that if the dressing room had more light it would be a far better place. Why are there no ceiling lights in there?!

I'm sort of in a stuck place now. I have the momentum to keep going, but there's not much else that's easy to do and declutter. So it's on to the next thing. Decorating. I balk a that because I'm bad at it, and because I never finish it. It's just so overwhelming and time consuming. I was thinking of devoting a month to each room--that would give me a timeframe to finish things by. Also, when I got tired of working I could start planning for the next month but not allow myself to work on it. IDK. I have to think on it a little more. Write by hand. Stuff like that.

I just wrote and deleted "Not looking forward to going back to work tomorrow." I had been looking forward to it, but at the moment I'm not. I'm getting pretty useless here though, so a change will be good, right? I'm just going to be so dead tomorrow now that I have a two week habit of getting up at 10. It was orignially 8, but quickly jumped to 9, and over the past three days has extended to 10. But tomorrow will be 6:30.

I half want to actually get up at 6:20 or 6:30 so I can have my little time in my nook, sipping coffee or hot lemon water and checking my blogs. But the other half wants to sleep.

Ah! I also started the idea of starting a new habit each month. I have to think what those will be too. This month's is to wash my face before bed.

3 days

Well, the holidays are over and I have three days to finish up everything to start the new year off right! I need to revisit the resolutions I made in early December and see if I want to add anything. I also really need to get everything in order since my transcripts arrived at SNHU and I was accepted and all. Cripes. One week until I start back at school.

I was talking to Dad at Barbra's and we figured out that I was 7 when he was 32. That's worse than I thought. I'm so far behind. D: Morale is still high though. I can do this. Time to refer to the list.

2 weeks to wrap up

I haven't been feeling great, so I haven't been doing as much as I planned. I have been keeping up and ahead with laundry, and I did clean the living room last night, so that was good.

Today was the last day of work before Christmas break. I have two full weeks off now, and only 4 days of that are already slated for stuff. Obviously I won't be doing much on Christmas day, and then we'll be in Johnstown Friday--Sunday. I'm still not sure if Dave is working on the Friday after Christmas; if he is, then I might be able to do a little something then.

Today I got an email from Chris Baty, who runs Nanowrimo. It was about the 2009 Big Fun Scary Adventure project, which is pretty much what it sounds like. While I won't be posting on the forum about it, I decided I did want to do it. Last year by BFSA was Japan, obviously. I was going to make "learn Japanese enough to carry on a conversation or understand the gist of a show" my thing, but idk. That's still too amorphous. So I took the plunge and did it.

I applied to an online school for my bachelors.

I'm kind of shocked myself, but I did it. If all goes well I'll start in a few weeks and see how it goes! I just hope my transcripts get in on time. I'm worried about the high school ones. :\

Despite not actually finishing up some things as quickly as I wanted (as in not doing as many things a night as I wanted to) I am still making good progress. Yesterday I moved an endtable up the the bathroom and put a shelf in it to hold the toilet paper/cleaner stuff/paraffin bath, so that's all neat and tidy. Or will be once I get the cleaning stuff orgainzed. Yes, the drawer is still filled with computer stuff, and I should probably clear that out and put bathroom related stuffs in there, but that will be when I do the under-the-sink drawers, which is the very last thing on my list because I'm dreading it so.

I also did under Leah's dresser, earning me another shoebox worth of trash, a big locking plastic bin (yay!!). I was able to hook the old DVD player up to my 13 inch tv from DuBois, mostly because I was able to find the cables to do so since I cleaned and organized the downstairs closet. See how this is all coming together?? :DDD So that means that once I take the piles of stuff to Goodwill I will be able to have a room of my own. I can exercise there, watch movies while I sit in the rocker and knit, write letters.... I'm pretty happy.

I did inventory all the stuff I'm taking to goodwill. Almost 100 items totalling over $1000 for tax deduction purposes. I really don't want to pay taxes again this year. Oooh, but wait! I bet we lost some money we have invested, so that will be a deduction. How sad is it that I'm seeing that as a positive thing? I don't care if we lost; I'm about ready to pull that money out of the investments and put it back into savings or into CDs or something. I hate it. I'm too old-fashioned and lacksadasical for investing. I'd rather have it right there at my fingertips and know how much I have and have it secure.

ALSO. I spent a good deal of time last night cutting sodden carpet out of the basement, because it resaturated all the cat-pee areas and was stinking up the whole house. It was gross. Seriously gross. Now that's forcing my hand to declutter under the stairs because I have to get rid of carpet from that area as well. I hate to have my hand forced.

I can't decide whether it's better for me to try to plan out the two weeks I'm off as far as what I'm gong to do each day, or if I should just keep my lists and chunk away at them. The problem is, once I start failing at a planned out to-do list, I just throw in the towel. So... maybe a rough draft so can get it in my head what I want to accomplish, but not a real list. Gah. I'm just doing all this because I don't feel like doing work-work right now. It's 9:00. Let's organize the desk, see what real work I have to do, and then plan for the time off, kay?


I AM SO UNFOCUSED TODAY! SELF, GET IT TOGETHER!

Facing the DOOM

I hate my upstairs bathroom. We're going to redo it, but it's such a wreck now that I hate to even have someone come in and see it. It gets this serious fuzzy dust over everything in no time at all. What is that shit? Dust and powder and hair and dead skin. It's nasty as hell. Fortunately, I have my mother's awesome vacuum, and that sucked up the bulk of it. The swiffer took care of most of the rest of it, and then I used an old washcloth to wipe everything else down. SO GROSS.

I'm pretty psyched to get to the point where it's all maintenence. I'm down to 9 things on the decluttering list:
under my dresser
sink drawers/under sink
under leah's dresser
cubby 1 in leah's room
cubby 2 in leah's room
under stairs in basement
dressing room cubby
thing that daddy made me
top of fridge

The cubbies aren't crucial; they're mostly attic-like, so there's not much to throw out of them. I do want to round up all the bills and stuff and get them in one box with this year's stuff to destroy in ten years. Under the dressers definitely need to be done, and the sink in the bathroom fer shure. I'm going to do under the stairs one day next week when Dave's gone as a Christmas suprise for him. The thing that daddy made me and the top of the fridge will take all of 10 mintues, so I'll get them done this week.

I also want to try to paint at least the Kitchen next week, and maybe the front room. That might be a bit ambitious though.

After the house is in order, it's on to the body! I'm starting to crave yoga. :D